Baconator!

Somedays at my internship when working with the mentally ill my heart literally feels like it wants to burst with love exploding out of it for these people. The lives of the people who visit us at the hospital lives are HARD. In my undergrad, one of my favorite professors told us that he use to work at the hospital where I am interning. He would tell his patients that at the moment the only difference between him and them is that for TODAY he is sitting on this side of the table. It is humbling and important to remember that. 

An important thing I have learned recently is that people are not "cutting" for attention. When people cut, their brain gives them chemicals that make you feel better.  It is a distraction from the deep emotional pain they are feeling. 

About five months ago I found it necessary to quit sweets. I get so addicted to it. I quit for four months, and I lost 8 pounds. I realize that isn't a lot in 4 months, but at least I was going the right direction. And most importantly I basically didn't care at all about desserts anymore. It was sweet freedom. I did eat some other things that turn into sugar (like french fries) that I needed to weed out. I made it clear until after Christmas and then I had some sweets here and some there and now I am a full fledge sugar addict again. And I have gained 4 pounds back. And I FEEL emotionally miserable. When I had lost my weight I felt so great. And as it has snuck back on it has really been painful. It should be easy to just eat carrots and get it off. Aside from the fact that something changed when I had my gall bladder out and healthy food doesn't like my stomach anymore, and the fact that I am eating out a ton from being so on the run, I am also a person who turns to food for peace. So I am really struggling.  I am going to try again.

You guys!!!! I feel so smart when I keep up with technology. My cute college kid friend who sold me my first smart phone a few months ago, always lets me "message" (I didn't even know what that was a bit ago!) him with questions that I don't know. And he is the sweetest to help me. I don't get people who complain about "kids these days". I think they are great. I have met MANY great ones. So he just taught me to access my pictures from my phone so now I can blog about them. All of this technology can be hard to keep up with when you really aren't that into it. 

So, I love the thrift store. I go in and have my routine of things I look for that bring a little joy to my life. I look for Pokemon or Mary Kate and Ashly VHS, cards for sending notes to people (I love when I can find old charming ones from when I was a girl), Toy horses of any kind, Puzzles that are from when I was a kid because they are way better made, fondue pot skewers, CLUE games, and fondue pots!!!!! haha, I feel like I have just told everyone the weirdest things ever! But those are the things I look for. Guys, I buy fondue pots. You can get them brand new for cheap. I have like six now and I never have used one. I think I mentioned this already once before. 

Anyway, last week....NO FONDUE POTS. But that is okay because they had this awesome had to have it BRAND NEW BACONATOR!!!!!!!!!

Corey joked about knowing why it was brand new because it was STUPID. But it wasn't. It was AWESOME!!!!!

We love it when the college girls come home! Kassidy and her twinny doing a mask. 

Oh!!! I should tell you about the sneaky puzzle thing I do with Bo now. When the girls went back to college Bo got his own room and a place to decompress and do his homework. He has a few flat dresser spots. I will get out a puzzle, put it on his dresser, do a few spots of the edge, turn a few piece over, and ususaly less then a week later he has the puzzle all done. I think it is the cutest thing ever and I think I am tricky.