A half hour of peace.
Nathan took Kate to the park and I can breathe deep. Literally. Sometimes (ha ha, who are we kidding) I let her watch TV but I can still never breathe deep because I know at any minute she will realize...."Hey! I am sitting still! What the chicken? Where is the mascara?" ...and the quiet will end. So I am grateful at moment for boy scouts. and the section which says Nathan needs to earn and save money which is why I paid him to go to the park with his siblings. Sweet short relief!
Anyway, I have really struggled with what my next step is. You know within the next few years if I remain babyless. Which, break and bruise my heart, is likely the case. Do I go back to school? Get a small part time job to give us a little extra funds? Stay home (yes, yes, please,please) and maintain the home and recover from the trauma of all these kids? What do I do?
I can really only think of a few things I want to do.
Write...no good ideas.
Nurse....TERRIFIED of killing someone. And the intensity of it. And going back to school. And maybe a little grossed out. And don't want to practice getting shots.
Work at the zoo...Doesn't everyone want to?
Maybe do something where I can type and organize.... would that be a secretary?
But last night I might have found my calling. Justine begged me to paint a turkey on her toe. What the chicken? A turkey? With nail polish?
But I couldn't say no. So I began to create. I planned the exact colors for the tail feathers. I practiced with tooth picks... (Justine listened to her ipod because I wouldn't let her watch my after 9:00pm TV show)....I prepped the toe (Eww, still grossed out over that one) and my new found talent just flowed from my body!
See my amazing work? Spectacular, eh? I knew you'd agree. Isn't is so darling that I have a daughter who paints her toes to holiday themes? Last month she did a spider web.
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