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Saturday, October 8, 2011

Something bad about me

I have a really bad quality.

You might have it also. But I have had it for a very long time. I have learned that it is a great tool of Satan's and that it quickly leads me down a path of depression like nothing else can. In fact it leads me down more than a path of depression. It leads me down a path of envy and sometimes mean feelings towards those I am envious of.

It is that of comparing myself to others. And it is almost always me comparing my worst to their best.

Or comparing their wonderful qualities of discipline, decorating skills, and musical ability to my.... lack of them. Not remembering my own wonderful qualities that they may not possess.

We just can't be everything. We are some of some things and less of other things. And I have learned that aside from sin and yelling at my children(which likely falls under the sin category), comparing is one of the things that me the most unhappy. And it is something I do. I wish I wouldn't.

I am thinking about this because I have been very depressed today. And aside from staying up until 2 am watching a GREAT MOVIE (go see!!!!) and talking and laughing with friends which has made me super tired and grumpy today, all this comparing has made me sad.

I need to switch it around. And remember the key to happiness. Gratitude.

4 comments:

Pirate Princess said...: Absolutely my friend! I am so guilty of this over and over - which is why I have to leave the internet for a time... recoup... get back into the swing of things... leave... recoup... it's a cycle, and each time we get stronger. Line upon line... I ♥ u!! YOU ARE SO AWESOME YOURSELF! Can I confess... sometimes I wish I was like you. ;); October 8, 2011 at 9:26 PM
Jennifer said...: Susan, I am so sorry you are down. One thing I absolutely love about the you I've gotten to know through this blog, is your testimony that you are a daughter of Heavenly Father. I struggle with comparisons, too, though. It's such a nasty tool of discouragement. Blast that Satan! But deep down I KNOW that Heavenly Father never compares us to others, so nor should we.

Hugs from someone who admires you greatly.; October 9, 2011 at 4:38 PM
Anonymous said...: Me should be more like you also.; October 10, 2011 at 2:32 PM
Anonymous said...: Suzanne said...Is this why I heart you, Susan? Hehe! I do the SAME dang thing! You are NOT alone on this one! I'm glad you are trying to find a positive attitude with this in particular. You are a great example to me and I am grateful to have friends like you who are REAL and talk about being HUMAN! =) (And I want to see that movie, too!)

Heather said...Love you !!! You are amazing!!!

Amy said...Yer just envious of my house keeping skills today, aren't you? Now, I'm depressed for you!

Sherri said...You are an amazing person Susan! So lucky to have you as a sis in law. Love you! You are an inspiration! Love you

Nancy said...We all have qualities that we don't like about ourselves! Don't dwell on the ones you think are bad, someone else always wishes they were you!; November 14, 2011 at 7:21 AM

I know it is long but it is life altering!

C.S. Lewis- Meanwhile the cross comes before the crown and tomorrow is a Monday morning...It is a serious thing to live in a society of possible gods and goddesses, to remember that the dullest and most uninteresting person you can talk to may one day be a creature which, if you say it now, you would be strongly tempted to worship, or else a horror and a corruption such as you now meet, if at all, only in a nightmare. All day long we are, in some degree, helping each other to one or other of these destinations. It is in the light of these overwhelming possibilities that we should conduct all our dealings with one another, all friendships, all loves, all play, all politics. There are no ordinary people. You have never talked to a mere mortal. But it is immortals who we joke with, work with, marry, snub and exploit - immortal horrors or everlasting splendours. This does not mean that we are to be perpetually solemn. We must play. But our merriment must be of the kind (and it is, in fact, the merriest kind) which exists between people who have from the outset, taken each other seriously - no flippancy, no superiority, no presumption, and our charity must be a real and costly love, with deep feeling for the sins in spite of which we love the sinner - no mere tolerance, or indulgence which parodies love as flippancy parodies merriment. Next to the Blessed Sacrament itself, your neighbor is the holiest object presented to your senses."

"Women of God can never be like women of the world. The world has enough women who are tough; we need women who are tender. There are enough women who are course; we need women who are kind. There are enough women who are rude; we need women who are refined. We have enough women of fame and fotune; we need more women of faith. We have enough greed; we need more goodness. We have enough vanity; we need more virtue. We have enough popularity; we need more purity." Margaret D. Naduald

" Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine as children do. It's not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others. -Nelson Mandela-

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Saturday, October 8, 2011

Something bad about me

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