cold sore, college, cool room!!!!!

I get about one cold sore a year. And I hate the grody little buggers. 

I can tell the very second I am about to develop one. 

So I get the beginnings of one and text my Doterra friend. "Cold sore! Help!"

She text back Melaleuca Doterra oil and she gives me a sample. Two days later it is gone!!!!!!

I feel like I am doing a service to the cold sore world by telling you this.

Phew. Holy cow we got our girl up to college. Between massive anxiety attacks and food poisoning she it was a little hectic and a little late. 

Corey came up and helped unload the boxes, met roommates, and put her name on some of her items. 

Then we went out to lunch at our favorite Mexican restaurant. Because Justine was sickish and not much of an eater anyway she had about three bites and was done.

Justine and I organized her room and then we had to make a super expensive trip to Walmart. Corey and her had gone shopping for some basic essential foods but after you move in you always find out there is more you need.

Um...like CHEETOS SKELETONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Heck yes!!!!

J/K. Justine wouldn't let me get them for her. She's so practical.

Becasue of her anxiety I had it in my head that everything else had to be perfect. I bought her movies to watch if she feels the anxiety coming on. We had discussion after discussion over how to not get that anxious to begine with. I talked to her about how your brain can't say more than one thing at a time to you so instead of getting panicky you stop it by doing your positive words to yourself. I made her a little list and we taped it next to her bed. Anxiety always seems to be at it's worst at night.

The list included things like this..

I am calm

I am strong

I can stand it.

I am okay

I am safe.

you say those things over and over and over and over and it is suppose to literally chage your brain.

I saw this today and it reminded me of what Justine is going through even though I don't think she is mentally ill.

Anxiety is very scary feeling. I describe it as it feels like your skin is crawling.

Corey has a cousin and she has a daughter also going to college so we got them together. They seemed to hit it off!

She has a picture of her Grandpa Bruce framed. She has had that in her room since she was a little girl.

So at the end of the bed there is this space where her dresser is in the front and the back of the "under the bed" is just wasted space. But it is narrowish and has a bar. We found two narrow tubs and so one slides on top of the bar and one underneath and it gave her a lot of room to neatly put her shoes in!!!!!!!

I just get a high off good organization. I think I adored her room more than her. She let me arrange the stuff perfectly on her shelves as well. That is my favorite too. And she is so cute with her old licences plates and old forest trail sign and her glitter deal and her dream catchers....and her random elephant head that she loved. lol.

We bought her  a step stool so she can get into her bed and the top shelf of her closet.

Her office supplies right next to her desk. The cute lamp came from her high school Senior party.

Under her bed is bottled watered and bottles of Gatorade and this tub of snacks that I just REALLY wanted to make for her. Like a little hamster with her stash of goodies. All my idea. She doesn't really care about eating meals. She just snacks. (Don't worry, I bought her apples and bananas)



When it was time for me to leave (10:00pm!) I was dropping her off to meet her new found cousin somewhere inside the big college that she had no idea where she was going. On top of that anxiety she is severely shy. So this is just terrifying for her. This isn't about missing me either. It is just about this dang anxiety and huge life changes.

We agreed we didn't want to hug and be all sad and get her anxiety going. So I just said see you on Tuesday for lunch when I have class.

And she sat in the car.

And I said get out, you're okay.

And she sat in the car.

And I said get out, you're okay.

And she got out and walked to the college. Heart break! And triumph!

I waited and waited until she text me that she had found her cousin and was okay.

I am honestly as proud as I could ever be. For her to push herself and battle this is just HUGE.

So today (first day of her gone) our family is quiet and a little lonely. But she seems to be doing well from what I can tell. So many different feelings.